From: Pointe
To: being left out

First up, hi! I think you have to know that in life, the only thing that stays constant is change. Everything changes in life. There can never be something that lasts forever in life. I know it's cruel, but really, life's like that.

Anyway, about being left out just because you're always the neutral one, I think that that is very common in cliques. Everyday, you will be the one being nice to everybody but in the end? You get left out from the clique. It pretty much sucks right? I understand but there's nothing you can do. If your clique leaves you out, then so be it! Find yourself some new friends and have fun. Show them that you are having fun and that them leaving you out hasn't affected you ( even if it does).

You mentioned that you don't speak to anybody from the clique nowadays even though you wish to right? So if finding new friends doesn't appeal to you, maybe you can try contacting them? I have to advise you against this though, doing so will make you seem like a desperate needy friend because it is kind of obvious that your clique doesn't wanna hang out with you anymore. Doing so will irritate them more. Finding new friends is a much better choice.

About your crush, just ignore the fact that he is in a clique and talk to him as normal. Don't worry about what those people in your clique might say, just be brave and talk to him. You mentioned that he still treats you nicely so you have a chance! A chance that might mean he likes you back too. Don't give up on this just because your clique leaves you out okay?

Be a brave girl ;)